Welp. It's been quite a handful of weeks. If you had asked me what my plans were about 2 months ago I would have said something about maaaaaybe planning a trip to Mexico. Weeeeelp.... then I got laid off.
Suddenly I had no plans AND every plan. The sky was this limit, but did I feel comfortable reaching for it? I had savings, but living in NYC, how quickly was I going to burn through that? Should I move? Should focus my energy on securing a new job? But any job? Or should I wait? Should I travel, volunteer or concentrate on making some art? I had a thousand questions with no "right" answers.
I had a crash course in finding myself. Eat, pray, loving from the comfort of the boroughs. The first few days I was of course bummed, angry, stressed and scared, but as time passed so did those feelings. As much as I wanted to take the time to relax, it is just not in my nature to do so unless I know I've done the work to earn it. So I started up the hustle, reaching out to anyone and everyone by email, linkedin, facebook, calls, job boards, etc. After that things started to fall into place quickly.
Interviews started to be lined up, my budget seemed relatively on track and suddenly for the first time ever I actually had the time to enjoy the beautiful NYC spring. I walked along the waterfronts and across bridges. I went to interviews from Uptown to Downtown and planned lunches, movies and museum trips in between. Spring time in bars, rooftops, tattoo parlors, dance parties, backyards and front stoops.
Answering the stock interview question "so what are you looking to do?" over and over actually made me think about it. The first few times parroting back the typical semi-generic goals, but then I found myself actually internalizing and contemplating the question. I was finally coming to realization that I am no longer a student, an assistant or an apprentice. I am a woman with skills, talent and a career. So what do I see myself doing?
Then I landed a freelance gig with a magazine called Man of the World. They have a really talented, but small team that just needed someone with production experience to step in and help them out. This projected ended up being a completely awesome reinvigorating work experience for me. I got to tap my skills, creativity, experience and conjure something really fun out of it. Issue No. 4 on stands soon! And yet again it really helped clarify the question about what I actually want to do.
I recently accepted a position with Urban Studio as a production manager. I am super excited about working with another group of talented people and finding out how I can fit in and help create some more great stuff. Since I was laid off I went to DC, Alabama, Vermont and I'm about to go to Mexico for a few weeks before I start the new job. I am happy to say when someone asks me "what do you see yourself doing" I can confidently answer, "This!"